“Ah, music. A magic beyond all we do here!” ~~ A Dumbledore
Power?
Checked! Cable? Checked! Instruments? Checked! Sound? Checked! Monitor?
Checked! 1, 2, 3 ...Go!
How
can I forget this journey, we started at count 3? Despite all the hiccups,
technical or human faults it was always fun and memorable. It is magic, it is
celestial! It’s beyond what we humans do. It’s timeless, it’s endless and it’s
immortal.
For
me, it’s a delight. I always loved being there, whenever I got a chance. I relish being on board. I somehow felt that
divine intervention. So much so that I don’t even remember being nervous. Yes,
that adrenaline rush was always there, but I never panicked, even if I was half
prepared for a show. I was always the first one to get into the stage and the
last one to leave.
Just prior
to that journey, we all belonged to a different world. A world very few people
have seen. Green Room! One can see various kinds of people there. Someone
praying, someone silent, someone cribbing, someone shouting, someone babbling,
someone nervous, someone panicking, someone visiting the washroom every now and
then, someone checking his dress and someone like me, pepping up everyone. It
is a world different from anything else.
I cannot talk enough about our families, teachers, mentors who made us,
what we are as musicians! Someone came
from a musical background, someone’s family was not supportive, someone rich,
someone poor, someone didn’t tell their parents, someone was ill; someone had a
fight with girlfriend. It was an amalgamation of myriad backgrounds and
emotions. But on board, we felt only one feeling. That is Music! It’s like the
same blood running through our veins; we spoke, played, and enjoyed the same
universal language.
As I stand here today, all I want to put across is the remarkable
journey I travelled with music. I miss being
at the realm with it. I miss the animated me, who always used to pep up others,
the excitement which used to begin right from the practice session to the show
and to the time beyond, I miss the winks, the grins, the smirks we used to give
other on stage, I miss the pranks we played live, I miss the way we used to
complement each other for each mistakes we made, I miss playing with those
mystical mesmerizing voices and the not so mesmerizing voices, I miss that
huddle where we used to pep up the nervous ones, I miss those gaze we gave each
other on stage when someone was not so confident, miss the feeling when power
or instruments go off, miss those electric shocks, miss the transition of emotion
the mind goes through with each song, miss the euphoria involved in it, miss
the bite of the tongue for every time I made a mistake or missed a beat , miss the chanting crowd, miss the adrenaline
just before going in, miss the whole overall setting of one of the most worthwhile
things I have ever been a small part of.
And I miss that
never fading feeling of satisfaction...silence everywhere. And the loud buzzing
sound inside my head since I left the stage. That happy feeling which did not
let me sleep, did not calculate my dreams, and did not let limit myself.