...If

As Valentines Day approaches we all look for a few words to express ourselves. Indubitably, silence is the best. But sometimes words create magic and love all over again.

"What will remain of us is love".

I was thinking what would I do if I actually had a Valentine tomorrow?

I prefer romantic simplicity. I would much rather go out to dinner at a jazzy restaurant on a night when the place isn't packed to the brim with overdressed patrons and filled with the aroma of ‘Calvin Klein’ and ‘Catalyst’. Movies at the theater means fighting a crowd and the possibility of being stuck crane necked in the front row with a view up and not being able to see a thing! It's all a recipe for royal disappointment. The best part of the evening would surely be the company...but how much better it could be with the ideal atmosphere.

I'd much rather opt for a night in...Together.

My ideal Valentine's date would be making bar-b-que together in the kitchen while some soft soothing music played in the background. Later, some desserts and an astir champagne. Candlelight is a must. And, of course, a chic flick that has already been seen before...it allows for a much easier distraction.

...if I had a valentine tomorrow, of course.

‘Born To Touch Your Feelings…’

First of all, I want to point out that the title is a direct replica of one my favorite songs by Scorpions...But I felt nothing would be a more pertinent title! It’s been a prominent factor of all my blog...most of them starts either with the name of some song, a movie or a book.

For a strange reason, I somehow do manage to relate myself to the songs, movie or the book. Probably not only me, but all of us definitely relate to the...sometimes the situations, sometimes the lyrics, sometimes the story. The characters, the words, the plot here are so true. They all are tirelessly fascinating because we can all relate to them and it involves us in a way that most things in our life do not. We find ourselves drawn to every moment these two occurrence...together and apart. All of us do!!!

Each and every song, book or movie is written with an exacting situation, a plot or it depicts some significance. There really are no words to describe how they make you feel, but one thing is for sure...they will make you feel. They reflect how things can be in real life. They are penned down with a message...may be good or may be bad. And as human beings we tend to follow what we see...seeing in reel life or reading or may be listening. Good or bad, whatever may be...but it definitely conveys a message and even if it’s in reel life or virtual life...we can relate to them. They take our emotions to a different level; they give us something to refresh, to push, to hope, and to restart. They make us smile, make us laugh, make us sing, inspire us, enlighten us, makes us weep and makes us cry, makes us realize and makes us feel, they make us dance, they make relax, they make us dream...undeniably the songs, movies or the books are born...born to touch our feelings...

Identical to us...humans, we are born with a particular motive or may be I can say ‘a mission.’ And it’s always up to us...how we complete it, in a mind-numbing or in a gratifying manner...most of the times we are driven by huge stirring feelings and undertones that are never verbalized, but just seem to hang in the air. In life we come across many people...we remember a few, forget a few...and wish never to meet a few. It’s for a reason that we meet, we talk, and we help each other or may be learn something. Once we are born it is bound that we will pass at any moment. Memories fade when we die. Nothing will remain...except our name in people’s heart.

Paper Planes !!!

Dreams… are the window through which we look at our life, they lead us to things we always wanted, and their fulfillment makes us happy. When we want something we immediately start making plans to get to it, the permutations and combination's. Our mind juggles through the options we have…and takes the flight to the target almost spontaneously. Yes, our minds are so sensitive that they tend to make ‘paper planes’ every now and than, it takes off immediately and reaches the destination before we actually do or sometimes we don’t even get near.

Recently while going through the lyrics of a song, I came across these lines…

I fly like paper; get high like planes
I get one down in a second if you wait…

So true and so close to our lives. It’s not always that our flight from dream to reality reaches the destination we always wished for…sometimes it is buried young; sometimes we don’t get what we desire.

Dreams or may be aspirations give a path to our life, a much needed direction to it. It is always risky to explore the unknown, but may be we risk more by backing up. We never know what is waiting for us in the very next step, true sometimes it may be painful, sometimes joyful but may be sometimes we find our self with a better result. Pitiful is the person who is anxious of taking risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned; perhaps won't suffer the way people do when they have a dream to follow.

So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.

We generate our own environment. We get exactly what we deserve. How can we resent a life we've created ourselves? Who's to blame, who's to credit but us? Who can change it, anytime we wish, but us? In life we can have results or reasons. If we are not getting the results we want, our reasons are the lies that we keep telling our self.

Someone said, “Sweet dreams are made of this. Who am I to disagree…Some of them wanted to use you, some of them want to be used by you. Some of them want to abuse you; some of them want to be abused.”

When you want what your heart desires, what do you do? 'Coz you can't imagine of anything else that feels right! And yet it's very subtle.

May be we should let the fears go, embrace it all for what it is, and make a silent prayer that the dream is as much yours, as you are the dreams'.

Fables Of Pune...

Pune…it started as a distant dream…to come to a place totally unknown and to make my own identity has been an eventful journey. There was a fear of something unexplainable…may be fretfulness, oddness and many more things. Now it’s been 7 years and Pune has become my second home. The city I gave 7 years of my life definitely holds a momentous role in the making of ‘Me’. Just like I saw the city grow into an IT hub, the city witnessed me nurture from a teenager to a young adult. Pune gave me a lot of things…career, name, fame, friends; enemies (hope there aren’t any), dreams, hope and immeasurable amount of experience and not to forget the mesmerizing memories. From being an aspiring engineer to become a graphic designer, from being an introvert to become a good PR, from being an average guy to become the ‘blue eyed boy’ of Assamese people in Pune, from being a inert musician to get a musical rebirth, from being one of greatest mis-manager to organize and manage huge events successfully I’ve seen it all in Pune.

Now, as I am on the verge of leaving Pune forever, waiting for my flight at Chatrapati Shivaji International Airport, am penning this note with moist eyes. Not only the city, I’ll miss all the good times I had here, the bad times, the experiences, the unending ‘adda’s, night rides, night outs, road trips, the leg pulling sessions, the musical sittings, the mismanagements, the funny mistakes, study hours during exams, the famous pork parties…the list is probably unending. Will miss my seniors, my juniors and my buddies with whom I shared my joys, sorrows, dreams, and hopes and learnt the art of living.

Adios Pune!!!

Line Drawing !!

Enough is enough!!! It’s not even a month and we are attacked again. What we saw in Mumbai it nothing less than what we saw in Assam, we just cant compare the impact…but the fact is we are attacked again…and we are doing nothing. It’s like someone is sitting on our chest and stabbing us again and again. Really devastating. For someone like me who’s as calm as me, it just took a minute to moist my eyes. My heart wept again. Are we secured enough…?? Why don’t we react…??

May be for our leaders and politicians it’s a favorable time to play the usual blame game and to make false commitments. Are they blind??? It is our nation and who are they to divide us? The funniest part being the one prominent Marathi leader, who proudly used to claim that Mumbai belongs to only people from Maharashtra, has probably gone blind, or may be hiding somewhere. Pity for him, that the same Mumbai he claimed to his is being rescued by the NSG commandos that is mainly build up of soldiers from North and South India.

Isn’t it strange for someone like Amitabh Bachchan quoted that for the first time in his life, he felt so unsecured that he pulled out his licensed pistol, loaded and kept it under his pillow???

People now are talking about being resilient and spirited…yes we have the mettle to fight back and back to our usual. We did it in the past, we’ll do it again. But for God’s sake, it’s high time for our politicians, please don’t try to divide us, we are Indians and we will be Indians. It’s really high time we should put up a collective effort and retaliate. The more we sit back the more we are hurt. The sacrifice of our brave soldiers should not go in vain; they laid their lives for our safety. It’s definitely time we should draw a line and spread the word…much like the sms that is circulating all over…”Forgiving the terrorist is left to God. But fixing their appointment with God is our responsibility.”

The Day After

Again people died, again people got injured. And again people who were 'people' yesterday became a 'number'. I won't say, for now, that we don't have enough security. The fact that I feel unsafe every single day, that I panicked again when I heard the news of the blast that I feel scared to move out of my house and my pleas might not help. I have given up hopes for sometime now.The terrorist have raised their dreadful head again. It’s not the right time to play the blame game, but it’s time we should wake up. Its life’s insincerity that we got to move on despite the devastating occurrence which killed nearly a hundred and wounded half a thousand for lifetime. Someday it may be one of us!!!

All the fingers are pointed towards Jehadi’s and Illegal Immigrants. We all know what they are…yet why are we so silent??? Isn’t it our unconcerned nature or unbending behaviour which is to be answerable for what ever we are facing today? Why we are so dependent on them? Why we can’t do our own work?? Are we paralysed? Our youth would rather spend the whole day gossiping near the neighbourhood pan shop or playing carom the whole day, but no matter what they won’t work. They need Govt job!!! Why even now our people think that other jobs or work is nothing? Is the Govt a job producing machine that will keep producing new jobs every now and then? Whenever I visit Assam, if I say someone that I’m doing Job, the immediate reply is…” Oh!! Company Job!!” Not to mention the expression on the face. But the fact is no work is bigger or smaller, be it a Govt job or a company job, what we all need is the desire. If our people start doing every little thing on their own i.e. utilise man power within our fellow people we can definitely tackle the employment problem to a great extent and also smoulder the immigrants problem. The more our people are involved, the less is requirement of people of outside. These people immigrate because they are aware of the fact that our land will provide them work, land and shelter.

May be we should start an economic blockade against illegal immigrants. Don’t give them work, don’t sell them anything, don’t travel in their rickshaws, and don’t give them your houses on rent. Spread the word, walk the talk. It is high time we show our united strength and not let the terrorist win. If we believe in goodness, in the long run the good always will win. Bombs can kill our bodies but not our hopes. Let us resolute and behead terrorism.

Love Actually

At some point or other in our lives we have been hit by this, most of the times unaware of what is going on around. Ever wondered what Love actually is??? Love actually...is an emotion that many of us have felt and others are still searching for it...it is probably the emotion, which is conversed or written on quite often. Many songs have been sung referring to its being and discovering it... but still if one were asked to define it, everybody would have a different definition, with more people being at a loss of words.

Love actually…is a strange thing. You never know how, where and when it will wrap you. It perceives you not from the eyes, nor thinks from the mind, and therefore the winged ‘cupid’ is always painted blind. The Love in your heart wasn’t put there to stay; it isn’t love till you give it away.

Love actually…is "unconditional". Loving someone through their flaws and all, accepting and embracing each others differences and compromising with their offerings. It is a word, what matters; is the connection that word implies.

It is when you are certain that you love someone, and then you think you love someone else, and then you both realize that you could never live without each other. It is when you love someone; you say it right then, right there otherwise the moment just passes you by...It is actually all around us.

Love actually…is when we create an 'us' without destroying a 'me'.

I read and toddle for miles at night, writing blank verse and search endlessly for someone wonderful who would step out of dimness and change my life forever. It never crossed my mind that, that person could be you. And then I realized...

Love actually…is when you, sometimes sneak into my thoughts when I’m doing stuff, and then I get all confused...I try to do things to keep my mind off you, but nothing actually seems to work, and I can’t stop thinking of you...

So, I just have to throw my hands up and say

“Fine!!! I admit it...”

“I guess I like you....

(well, okay)...a lot!!!”

Love actually...is when I realize while watching “When Harry Met Sally” that, “I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."

Love actually…is when every time you do something pretty...and I fall love with you all over again.

Love actually…is when I feel that you’ll always be in my life, Even if I'm not in your life, because you're in my memory.

Love actually...is when there is no genie in the bottle to bring me to you or fairy godmother to make my wish come true but I can dream, and when I dream I'm there with you.

Love actually…is when only words could have described my love for you…With each passing day and each passing night I wish, if only words could have described…

Love actually…is when I know that I may be innocent to know what love is, I may not show it to you. I may not love you the way it should be, but am always willing to love you the way I understand it.

Love actually…is knowing you are busy, but still expecting that out of 1440 minutes of the day, you’ll take out a minute to remember me.

Love actually…is when someone asked, define ‘love’? And I just closed my eyes and remembered ‘YOU’ for a while.

Love actually…is when the sparkle in your eyes and your reassuring smile bared out my soul to you, and still I don’t know why.

Love actually…is when every time it’s just a simple thought about you that keeps me falling in love with you.

Love actually…is every moment...I wonder, if you are thinking of me too...

Love actually…is something…that makes me feel, you are somewhere near...

Love actually…is every night...I wish, on the shining star...that the new dawn will bring us closer still...

Love actually…is everyday...when I wait, for a call... or a simple note.

Love actually…is when I know I don’t have a chance, but I just wanted to hear an angel talk.

Love actually…is when I feel, I should tell you every day ‘I Love You’ because you are perfect everyday.

Love actually…is when I’m jealous of the people you ever hugged…’coz for a moment they held my world…

Love actually…is when I say ‘I Like You’ but I mean ‘I Love You’!!!

Love actually…is when…

Love actually…

Love…

That Thing Called Love...

Life always spills surprises on us, every step is a new one and we never know what is coming our way. Life always unfolds a door for us, possibly not the one that we consider to be good for us, but the one that will eventually prove good for us. Love and Death being the two most un-invited guests, no body knows when they will come and embrace you, but they do the same work. One takes the heart and other takes the beat. Jokes apart, but according to me ‘Love’ is the second mistake created by GOD, ‘Girls’ being the first. But there is no doubt in the fact that both are beautiful mistakes.

Mistakes do happen. People slip, people trip, people fall and usually people don’t care, but then people slip and fall in love with someone and they don’t know what to do. Love actually is a strange thing. You never know how, where and when it will wrap you. Out of no where a person enters your life like no one else, and things change. Love is the offspring of spiritual affinity and it is created in a moment. We never know with whom we fall in love and how. It’s a nice feeling when you are in love, but what if you fall for a person whom you have know for years, being good friends ??? To add to it there comes this dilemma, to tell her or to not??? If you love someone just approach and disclose; either way you’ll gain but what a pity our life is, if we hate someone we tell them without any fear and if we love someone we fear to tell…

What are you waiting for?

You have to tell her. Don't let her get away. You will regret it someday. Perhaps, we risk more by not risking anything at all.

Honesty works best, of course. But saying "I Love You" right away can be a huge leap and might come as shocking. May be it would just be a good idea not to tell her directly that you love her but drop very palpable hints in that direction. Talking might go a lot easier this way. No doubt about it, you should tell her. Having a romantic relationship with someone who is also your friend is a wonderful thing. If you lose her as a friend at least you would have tried.

The problem with telling your friend you love her is that it could damage the friendship. On the contrary, not knowing is even worse. If this person is truly your friend then the friendship will stay intact despite the temporary awkwardness.

I believe, to sit down and have a serious talk with her, pouring your heart out may help. The worst thing that could happen is she doesn't feel the same way. So what, you might still be friends. Usually girls don't cross the line of friendship on their own because they are scared of being rejected and losing a friend at the same time.

The questions comes again…should I or should not???

Do you really want to spend the rest of your life saying "What if?"

I don't think so!!! So, it’s always better to just tell her. You should go for it. You should not expect her to see the signs to know that you are interested. Tell her. It's better to know than wonder. And remember that she might not be there forever.

We usually end up in two situations, or at least I feel that we do:

(1) How important your companionable friendship is with this girl??

(2) Whether or not you are capable of maintaining that friendship and simultaneously moving on??

In all likelihood, she already knows how you feel, and although she doesn't feel the same way, she really appreciates your friendship. Saying something to her will undoubtedly create an uncomfortable situation between you. If you value your friendship, and would like to continue it, you should stay friends but MOVE ON. The only negative thing she can do after knowing the situation is to try to put distance between you two, and you can easily put a stop to that by letting her know that she is important to you and that you won't let her just walk away. You really do have nothing to lose. Interest often evolves one-sided in friendships. Even if she doesn't feel the same way, if you two can overcome the initial awkwardness (however long that may be), ultimately it will bind your friendship to be stronger.
True love in you if understood by the other need not be openly 'told'! If it is not understood there is no point in telling to your disappointment. If the true love is there on both sides, it will develop its own dynamics of expression which is spontaneous, silent and sacred.

We should do what our heart feels. It doesn't get easier every time you tell someone how you feel (for me at least). If she is a friend she will continue to be one. We should never bottle up emotions like these since they can literally destroy our life. Don't wait and miss the chance altogether. If she really values your friendship, she is not going to let something like this ruin a friendship.


…Probably it’s the story of every other person, it happened to me and countless others. One fine day it just happened, someone kept running in my mind all day long and I didn’t know what it was. I was never been so confused before. Was it a crush??? Infatuation??? A passing phase of my life or it was just her, her and her…

After a long self introspection, I finally asked myself…

What are you waiting for?